well, for the past few days i've been travelling out of london on my own.its pretty fun and yeah,totally a different experience.went to cambridge on wed,spent the night at stansted and continued to tour cambridge the next day.went to King's College, its chapel, Harvard Sq,Cambridge common etcetcetc.yeah saw the Newton's apple tree.hahah.after which i left for york to see Minister and 'Shambles',York University, Cathedral.left for Newcastle after that and spent the night there.well, on friday, i went to edinburgh to visit Edinburgh Castle,think i've been there before but yeah i dont exactly remember much of it so there i was again.and right now, i'm sitting in matt crawhaw's room doodling around the internet,watching war movies,killing time,and waiting for him to come back from his play and bring me my drinks.Yes.i'm in scotland now,glasgow to be specific(: hahaha its pretty cool you know, to travel half around the globe and "oh ive a friend in scotland,lets go visit him". so here i am.we're gonna travel to Inverness with some of his friends tomorrow, gonna visit LochNess too.hopefully the monster could be spot:P kidding.well,im gonna come back to glasgow on the sunday,tour around for a week,and leave for Manchester on friday.MAN U HERE I COME!!!!! hopefully if i have the time i can make it to Belfast and Windermere. I really wanna go there.the lakes are awesome.would love to go Cardiff to visit the Cardiff Castle too.so many places to go, not so much time. Well, there's a will a theres a way.for now,I'm king of the world,enjoying life now.every bit of it.

and when i get back to singapore...
Hell starts.

“Well this is, and Rhoda, no disrespect, but um, this is total shit. Go for it? You can do it? That’s not inspirational that’s suicidal! If pickles goes for it right there that’s a dead cat. Lies, were liars think about it, why do people buy these things? It’s not because they wanna say how they feel, people buy cards cause they can’t say how they feel or they’re afraid too. We provide the service that lets them off the hook. You know what? I say to hell with it. Lets level with America at least let them speak for themselves right I mean look, look. What is this, what does this say? “Congratulations on your new baby.” How bout “congratulations on your new baby, guess that’s it for hanging out, nice knowing ya.” How bout this one? With all the pretty hearts on the front, I think I know where this ones going. Yup “Happy Valentines Day sweetheart, I love you.” Isn’t that sweet? Ain’t love grand? This is exactly what I’m talking about. What does that even mean, love? Do you know? Do you? Anybody? If somebody gave me this card Mr. Vance, I’d eat it. It’s these cards, and the movies and the pop songs, they’re to blame for all the lies and the heartache, everything. We’re responsible. I’M responsible. I think we do a bad thing here. People should be able to say how they feel, how they really feel, not ya know, some words that some stranger put in their mouth. Words like love, that don’t mean anything. Sorry, I’m sorry, I um, I quit. There’s enough bullshit in the world without my help.”

500 Days of Summer left me hanging with a chain of emotions and thoughts, it's like i was just randomly watching some movie online, and then "BAM!" every single part and scene and words and script just hit hit hit me.I dont even know what to say next.

sitting under an oaktree, watching the sunset, reading by the tracks,watching the leaves fall, listening to the breeze,watching time pass.
it's really a luxury to do all these, after all the island i live in called singapore doesnt have any of these. to be frank, i'm not really enjoying much for the past few days here in london, at least not yet. i feel so obliged helping my aunt out, and honestly i dont think im gonna accept the pay shes gonna give me. yeah money's good, but ah..i just dont feel like accepting it..dont know why either.
anyway, i made lots of friends here, and its quite an enjoyment to listen to their conversations, to listen to how these people speak, which is totally different from singapore. It just makes me wanna study hard even more. I want to study overseas.For sure. anyway, received an email today, that i can apply for Diploma Plus. Basically its an extra diploma i can take in poly, because my grades are pretty good, so meaning i can graduate the polytechnic with 2 diploma certs instead of 1.I'm still contemplating over it, but yeah half my mind's made up anyway, that im very interested in it. i want time to pass quickly, i want to live in a different environment. London's a good start, really,not because i'm over here, but yeah. I fell in love with this place 7 years ago.

Turn down the silence 
Inside my head 
Bring back the colors 
Were you insane? 
Further from where I've started 
Further to go 
Keeping my heart under control 
Why do I still feel you?
 

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i'm happy.its been an awesome month.and for the next month,its gonna be even more a bomb. leaving singapore next tuesday, LONDON HERE I COME WHOOOWOOOHOOO! i've so so so many plans of what to do there, considering the fact that im going there alone, i wanna travel to manchester, prolly go to glasgow to visit matthew.caves, MEADOWS AND PLAINS,beaches, night walks.awesome.not to forget,PRIMEMAK!

honestly, i'm bursting with life after so long.. for the first time in my life, i have a goal,and doing well in school actually feels damn good.leaving night scene relieved me the sense of guilt, having awesome friends to be there wheneever,i cant describe how grateful i am,and lastly, to have parents ever supporting whatever i do,sending me overseas,supporting me for business, constantly reminding and guiding me in my spiritual walk. i dont know,what to do without all these wonderful people in my life.

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and im so much better off without you.

I'm sick of feeding my soul
to people who'll never know
just how purposeless and empty they've grown.
Because their language confuses
like computers refuse
to understand how I'm feeling today.
I'm freezing.
And losing my way.
I don't need another map of your head.
I am freezing.
And losing my way.
I don't need another map of your head.
I saw a liquid control.
That gives life to us all.
I hit my head on it
and woke up to know.
That I was all alone.
Wearing just socks and a phone.
Someone screaming like their world might explode.
Yeah. I'm freezing.
And losing my way.
I don't need another map of your head.
Rose-tinted view
And satellites that compromise the truth
But I wanted more
With the cuts and the bruises
Touch my face
A hopeless embrace
Faith, it drives me away
But it turns me on
Like a strangers love
It rockets through the universe
It fuels the lies, it feeds the curse
And we too could be
Glorious
I need to believe
But I still want more
With the cuts and the bruises
Don't close the door
On what you adore